It took me a while to get here…to actually have the courage to write about how my Team Myles experience is going; but here I am, better late than never!
From the begining everyone was very supportive and it sounded like many people had similar backgrounds as myself, with very limited running experience. It was great reading about everyones goals and fears, all very similar to my own. I felt like I belonged! Then came the runs! I’m not going to lie, they were, are…probably will always be, HARD!!!! I knew this coming in as I’m sure most people do, however, what I didn’t know is exactly how hard it was going to be!
I have Asthma and an old injury in my knee, so I knew it was going to be challenging, but man, trying to catch a breath in -15 degree weather was a struggle! I kept saying to myself, “if you can get through this…you can get through anything” so I treckked on even though my lungs felt like they were burning and felt I had to walk more than everyone else!
The first hill run was a difficault night for me, both physically and emotionally. I felt weak, out of shape, out of breath and out of place! I could barely keep up with the warm up! this was followed by another bitterly cold run in the park, where again I felt like I was not able to keep up with the majority of the team! I was very close to giving up that Sunday, after convincing myself that maybe some people just cant run!
Luckily for me, I have a husband who does not let me get away with these types of rationalizations and brought me back to a logical frame of mind using the following points:
a. You are new to running…it is hard and that’s ok
b. you have asthma, so you have to train your lungs how to breathe when running, this is hard and that’s ok!
c. It’s bitter cold outside which makes everything hard and that’s ok!
d. You are strong and just doubting yourself..having the confidence to try something new is hard and that’s ok
e. failure is only possible with quitting…and that’s not ok!
So tonight, logical Angela left emotional Angela at home and went to the hills for her Thursday night run…It was hard but you know what…. I did it! Tonight was the first time since begining this journey that I actually believe that I am going to be able to do this, tonight I felt strong, tonight I felt like a runner.
I have a long journey ahead of me…but plan on running as much of it as possible!